平板成绩

Finally got my One Timer. Someone 22>QQ early on to tilted me and at midnight I doubled winning by 44>99. I M OUT OF CASH GAME WHILE I M WORKING THIS MONTH, THATS A SERIOUS PROMISE.

another boring day at eSport room, played like 10+ SNGs, many KO bounties at PS and been sucked out a ton.

Good thing is that I defined the thing I truly care.

1. Health, wealth and good relationship.
2. Control of life
3. The skill to gain respect, reputation and for make a living

very memorable day in China poker history, as master Rich Zhu ultimately took down the $1500 Omaha mix gold bracelet. Been grinded for so many years, very deserved and congrats to my distinguished master, well done!

For me, another day skipped work and grinding online. Someone lost the key for eSport room, took me 2hrs to get access and desperately need a pit stop (so fxxx embarrassing). Running deep at 220+R to take a decent profit with 5 KO bounty, QQ<KK then switched to Pokerstars. Haven't been played for almost 2 years but still the same piece of sxxx. I have no idea of the RNG but it seemingly the big stack could always get there no matter how ridiculous the board/card comes. Comparing with it, DPQ is far more fair as far as I seen. Rigged Stars!

So soon I busted out big11 and hot27 near ITM, some fxxxing moron def its BB calling my 8bb jam with A4s vs my 33 and flopped it... then TT<K7o AIPF... Gladly I learned too much about BRM and only playing $10 KO now. fxxx Stars

So today what I got is a ￥200 sweety red envolope, which turned into a one-third discounted PUBG account as soon as I got it. My buddy would give me a SS JPN IP as soon as he got home, which would make me play more smoothly and get access to DMM more effectively. Besides of that, there isn't much fun besides 48 broadcasting and gaming. Just stay in my comfort zone and grind my life out.

I got a very interesting topic today: What would you like to talk to youself of ten years ago?
Well..I would say..

You would get all you need, just remember it takes time, and it has cost.

I reckon at that time, I just made 150k in bull market but lost half at year 2008. Obviously at that time, I m still a virgin at 21 and never kissed girls, never drive a car, got a dreamed girl in school that I seemingly got slight chance (not really), and addicted to WoW so deep. At the time, I interested in English very much but I love playing game even more, so I changed the lauguage in case I could learn some at least while I was playing. But also I got lots of things to worry about. Like my future, my marriage, my career, my first kiss, my first sex, field of make a living. Also, I got the dream of living abroad also.

How do I feel now?

Very compliated. I got much much more that I couldn't even imagine at that time. My language is much fluent than I expected at that time, but as a cost, I also witnessed lots of dark issiues that ruined my value. Some were put into jail, some went broke, some stuck with gangsters and loan-sharks. I m fortunate to dig gold and still got my friends, family and relatives on my back. But I could never relax, money ever sleep, and the up and downs would be with me forever.

Games are getting much dryer and tough to beat, maybe it’s the right time for me to reconsider my career. Good for me not to choose play full time at end of year 2017.

Bankroll management is the core concept of all trade, increment and speculation. Regardless of how much you may got in potential, you could only lose 100%

review about last month falling session. 1. Way optimistic about potential winning 2. Jump level when bad luck unable to accept lose don’t stop lose 3. Distracted and unable to play A-game 4. Never prepared for the worst coming

On airport line for picking up FIDE CEO Geoffrey, who taught me a lot as premium PUA. Got some free time to look back my failure at 2015. Basically I m that guy who lower down social to the minimum but actually lack of social skills. That’s why I wasted 2 months of housing rent( really took my decent chunk of profit grinding on Melbourne), along with a devastating downswing of 2.5k on PokerStars. What I didn’t realize is, ‘break even’ is that much important to ppl including me, and not the money but it is the loser feel that almost killed me. Whatever you do, lost faith is so devastating, doubting yourself so much would cause depression and certain kill of all action, which only another start of bad circle.

I m so happy I could back to China and here developed so well. Lower down cost a lot and I could have a new rebuild bankroll to do Sth I really enjoy like Manga. I know I would trading for living, and the huge lesson is, always consider the variable change. (jk, obv worst senario)

Made some $$ by sports betting and much fun n joy, found common topic with my dad, who’s a big sport fan. Now I can put my IQ in betting and figured out BRM is always the No.1