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本帖最后由 柏木雪狐 于 2016-7-4 22:31 编辑
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Quitting Stars & Start new goal
After another crazy Stars Zoom500&CAP2000 session at weekend, I eventually withdrawal all my money in the account and basically say goodbye to the Stars cash games.
Seriously, I start to getting tired of endless mind battles with those ultra grinder. After many years of learning and practicing, I figured out myself actually start to become greedy and unsatisfied with those lower-stake games, start to gamble more on flip just in case don’t want to lose the tiny small edge to those pro grinders, which always bring fierce swings. It’s quite normal for me to up-and down $1k in one hrs, or $5k in one day.
The reason why I m writing it in English instead of Mandarin, is to prove this probably the only thing I’ve been doing well and keep improving in the passing few years. I don’t like to share pessimistic opinions to my followers, so if anyone read it carefully, he/she might be the guy literally concerns about me, and in that case I could tell some truth below.
I d like to confess that cash game is a dark and evil game, just exactly like Daniel Coleman said after he won the big one-drop, even though both of us are winning players ---- the difference is I have yet to make a living by this. But few people say it in public, cuz it’s really lucrative --- if you running this game, cut the rake, or find a good spot on high stake private whale game.
Tournament, by the way, is much better considering its social factor and competitiveness, which you and your REG nemesis don’t have to blow your mind try to exploit each other’s leak. It’s much relaxing to play, cuz you have absolutely a certain idea how much entry fee you would possibly lose, with a chance to take a shot of the biggest prize. I did actually have the chance to date the dealer afterwards and enjoy some pretty good time.
I think “gambler” is a super notorious calling to cash game players, but unfortunately lots of them did do that a lot, regardless on the table or off the table, and not surprisingly many of them are busted or self-destroying. I believe the true elite cash games players are those staying with whales, or had good reputation to entertain your boss’s games, and I was the latter one who don’t want to be kicked out, especially on the eve of IPO shot.
And most of my cash game earning went to social events, just in case I won't get isolated by the society.
Since I’ve been working for Ourgame over a year, I would play exclusively on this platform for quite a long time, rebuild my bankroll and my self-discipline ability. I can hardly focus on my work, considering on the winning-and-losing all the time, and it’s the damn right time to back on track.
I definitely would like to play tourneys more, cash game is lucrative but dark evil.
<So ironic>
I could still recall start my Star career on year 2011, and busted for the first time at March, 2015 for roughly $5k. Not a big deal for the numbers, but a devastating consequence afterwards ---- cuz it's destroyed my self-confidence and make me doubt if I could still play competitively. Everything went fine at Feburary, as I crashed the Melbourne cash game tables and scooped several $500 Full-Tilt Jackpot --- but thing didn't go under my way after back to Sydney. I didn't play any live cash game ---- which actually should be the right spot ---- and played on star instead, thinking I did still have the edge by using HUD.
As a satelillte grinder, I scooped the Wednesday $330 ticket and build a decent stack, then opened with AKs n facing a gigantic 50+bb jam at button. Didn't take much time for me decided to call the remaining 40+bb, and lost a huge flip <33. I just couldn't get the point. Boiling up actually while I m still unaware, I sit on Cap 1000 game to play $5/10, counting on some quick flip double-up. Obviously that night everything not going my way, lost 5 consecutive flips then I totally lost my mind, then begging for some classic 30-70 and 50-50 scenario that " it could not be possibe!". After some crazy roller-coaster swings, the table broke left only me and the other nemisis - "Maksimus1978", a supernova elite with over 5m Vpp life earning.
I think you know the story happened, bascially suicidual mission -- Busted after a long night Cap heads-up Duel.
this is actually not disatrous amount of $ --- the self-destroy mindset matters. You could build a stack, busting your ass to collect some roll, and seeing it all collapsed during some hours like domino ---- do you still have the confidence and patience to build it back?
Not me, at that spot.
I find out myself always stuck on pasted time mistakes, both stobborn and meaningless. After over half year break from Stars, my style changed.
Simply jumping on the highest game I could ever find, then start roller-coaster trip. Start from Cap1000, Zoom500, mixed some $10/20+.
On year 2011 when I deposited $600 in Stars it was like life-time starting bankroll. But years later after my officially first busto --- I could hardly remember a few days which my swings below $1k. On day on October I borrowed my friend's Telsa for a free-ride, good experience, if I didn't lost $3k after back home on Stars within 95 minutes.
The negative effects is that when I literally want to do some meaningful things at weekend, I barely have any idea besides drive outside, find a starbuck then play day-long session online poker ----- which you could hardly describe it as a formal "social life".
Feeling tired of this just on yesterday, Zoom 500 session busto my account for the X times, and re-deposit the third time unconsciously, just numb to play, and suddenly upswing like storm to bring a couple of thousands backs, sitting on table like a boss and just barely covered my loss.
A fake hugo boss, sitting here with his full bankroll.
fxxx IT, not the type of life I wish to have.
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