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第四十五篇 什么是上帝的完美计划(2014-10-8)
I learned last year that a perfect plan doesn't mean it ends up the way you want it to end up. In the past, if you ask me what a perfect plan is, it would be I get what I want, I get my dream, I play well. Now I have a different perspective on what a perfect plan is. You don't get better if you win all the time. You get better when you lose. You improve when you lose. You looking yourself when you lose. So if you learn a lot,if I learn a lot, if I become a better person, through tough times. That's part of a perfect plan. That's part of a perfect will. While I was going through all my insecurities, uncertainties, lack of confidence, I was losing focus on god. I was focusing on the other things, like my job. And what other people thought of me. And what the reporters were writing. And over time, I was able to check myself and get my focus back. I think god did something super natural on me. Something that I couldn't do on my own. So I think that's instance I was just learning to fight constantly to live and play for god. And when I do that, I will be able to walk on water.
上面这段话是林书豪在其纪录片最后的一段自我陈述。这是一段有深奥哲学意义的话。作为基督徒,我们相信上帝对我们每个人都有一个完美的计划。也许我们期望它意味着我们的一生顺风顺水,可实际上,神引导我们走过充满不确定的日子,走过困难的时光,最终让我们变得更好,才是真正的完美计划。它和我最喜欢的哲学论述:“有勇气改变你能改变的,有胸怀接受不能改变的,有智慧来区分这两者”相辅相成,反映着类似的真理。
在今天,在50/100桌上我打了一手奇臭无比的牌以后,把这个道理运用上去以后,一下子郁闷的心情没有了,反而变成积极的,愉快的心情。
前位一个游客鱼limp,在有限的时间里,我已经发现他几乎会limp 80%的手牌。我在后位用9T加注到400,只有他call。flop 488, 我bet 600, 他check raise 到1600。考虑到这样弱的对手基本raise都是大牌,很想放弃。但是因为刚才一手牌我也是,后位加注,他跟,flop我下注,他弃牌。所以会不会他这次用很弱的牌或者空气牌这样做呢?最后还是跟,turn 6,我买卡顺,他下注1800,我跟,river空白,他check,我bluff,下注5000,他跟,开出来78. 呵呵,这个对手太弱了,用三条8打得这么小,river还过牌,这样的对手,check raise是多么大的牌,我还去送了8000多。一下子觉得自己特别傻,特别后悔。而且这样的错误以前出现多次,经验应该说是非常丰富了,可又犯了。
过了一会儿,我突然想通了。这也许就是上帝完美计划的一部分。我确实还是会犯这样的低级错误,这就是我游戏的缺陷之一。正视这一缺陷,这一错误,虽然是一个低级错误,一个让我羞愧的错误,但是它真实反映了我现在的水平,低级错误还是有。从错误中中学习,包括低级愚蠢的错误,专注于打好每一手牌,做好每一个决定。当我认识到上帝会带领我走过所有困难的时光以后,我的内心更加的平静,我只要继续专注把我的事情做好就行了。所有的不确定性,所有的困难,都是上帝完美计划的障碍物而已。感谢上帝! |
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